Gatal giler...

Before the Sun rose, I woke up on a couch in KLIA with my friend. Obviously we didn't have a good sleep. KLIA has been like an empty shopping mall after the peak hours of flights.

Other than not having ample rest, my lower arms were itchy. I had no idea why. Couldn't be mosquitoes. It's too cold for them to be active. Besides, my friend didn't feel the itch despite not having a shower since morning. It's just strange. Maybe my arms or fingernails had contact with some chemicals that I'm allergic at. Well, not that I know of. It could be on the airport trolley, the meal tables, the handrail... anything. Some parts of my lower arms swelled due to the scratching.

After a whole day of busyness, my hands are still itching now. There's no medication. Hopefully it gets better soon. Till then, even when my face needs a light scratch, I wouldn't want to take the risk.

Can't do much

Just had two tests today. In the morning, it was Organic Chemistry. It was...indescribable. I don't want to describe how it was. Just... not that good.

Next, it was Japanese. Yea, just one hour ago. It was 90% in hiragana. Now you see how difficult it was. Before that, I had a dance practice for the Tamil Society night. I forgot what I read because of that, and I didn't do very well. Sensei marked my paper immediately and I got 5/10.

I'm going to send a friend off to the US tonight. Okay I'm off to KLIA now.

Cheezy

I guess I started my day well. Had enough sleep and I was in time for lecture. After class, I went to town to buy some ingredients for my cheese cake. The only thing I didn't manage to get is lemon, but generally, everything went on well.

The cheese cake I made was based on intuition. I didn't really follow the recipes I read online. And it was really a small one. After I mixed everything, I tasted a pinch of it and I thought it was quite good. The only fear was whether the gelatin works or not. If it doesn't the cream cheese will not stay solid and will flow like molten larva. Thank God, after many hours in the refrigerator, it stayed solid. Maybe it was the egg as well. Eggs will hold the cake as one piece.

Then, I brought the cake to the seniors' house. All girls. Many of them tasted and gave positive comments and suggestions. I was delighted! Haha... will improve my skills and make a better one soon.

Directionless

I have no idea why I am so tired and lazy today. Not to the point of being exhausted, but just felt lazy and want to escape to somewhere where I can focus and think with my right mind.

The very first class was Chemistry. I already felt like dying. I just wanna run out of the class. Another feeling that crept up to me is the craving for food. I know I kind of skipped breakfast and I was hungry, but definitely not until the compulsion of eating and eating and eating again. I avoided it by taking a nap.

At 2.30 p.m., we had our Biology presentation at the Chancellory. I will be having a class at 4 p.m., but the lecturers came to my booth only at 5 p.m., while others happily packed up already. Fortunately, I text the lecturer earlier to inform her my late attendance. We were really, really late.

I just felt unmotivated. I'm not even sure what's troubling me, or maybe I just didn't want to face the fact, or I need to break them into smaller parts to deal with. I don't know. I wish someone's here to hear me out.

I don't like this... and i need rest

I wished I have more time to rest. The end of the semester is approaching, yet some lecturers still gave us assignments. We should be doing revision at the point of time.

I had to meet my biology group again to complete the project at KHAR. Cycled there. We will be presenting our work tomorrow. Hopefully it will be well. Besides that, I had to attend a Rakan Alam Sekitar meeting at night. Thank God it wasn't long.

Another thing that contributed to my tiredness is this friend of mine. I never understand him. Maybe I do and I just don't want to accept the fact. It could be my own problem. But it's not what I want. My personality is shaped by the people around me. And not that I have a hideous face or an ugly personality. I am just the way I am. And if I can accept your personality, why can't you?

Tired of thinking all these. If only I have a close-to-heart friend. Even one is enough.

Feeling Lost

Had a rather busy day today.

After the meeting with the Fire Brigade, I went for lunch with friends, and quickly went back to settle some church stuff and swiftly, I cycled to KHAR for the Biology project with my group. I didn't have the time to nap to cover the hours that I didn't sleep.

Ok, actually I wasn't very clear with what I wanted to do today. I was kind of disoriented. Not enough sleep, I'm sure! Very sure. In fact, I wasn't even sure with what I want, what I expect. It seemed like every desire of mine is not justifiable, or not noble. I just don't know how to express them.

Never mind. I guess I'll just sleep now and everything's going to be fine tomorrow.

Sleep, man... sleep!

I didn't have enough sleep yesterday night. It was barely 2 or 3 hours of sleep. Had to rush some of the assignments.

I'm rather sorry for my room mates when I printed the documents at 7am. Two of them were disturbed by the noise. I don't understand why it is noisier than usual. Maybe the surrounding was relatively quiet. Another one slept like a pig, undisturbed at all. Yea, I know him. The only way to wake him up is repeated alarms or just a slightly heavy push on him.

Due to my lack of sleep, I felt the heat on my limbs. The feeling was kind of awesome as I didn't really feel the coldness in air-conditioned rooms. But then, my body will long for some warmth of the sunlight, which to my delight, was there when I came out from the classroom. Still, the lack of sleep made me drowsy during class. Thank God that it was just presentations and not lecture.

After CF, I came back home and wanted to take a 45-minute power nap. But I ended up sleeping until dinner time. 4 solid hours of sleep and I did not even hear my alarm. I must be too tired for not sleeping enough for the past few nights.

My liver's at risk now...