My day started with a room mate who was not having an 8 a.m. class doing his laundry in the bathroom. He refused to use the washing machine because hand washing is cleaner, said he. I had lab at 8, but he wasn't even bathing. All he did was to wash his clothes and it he took so much time. I was almost late. Only about 20 minutes before 8, he came out. After washing up, he was sitting on my way. To save time, I threw my clothes across the room to the table and I left the room hastily. I bet he didn't know or didn't care about it. He was only concerned about his assignment.
I was so angry when I left home. Why is he such an inhibitor? Can't he be an enzyme? Only much later, I heard a still, small voice. I quickly said a prayer to ask for forgiveness for having such anger, and in my heart, I forgave him.
After that, it was EC. We had a test. Let's go straight to the result. I got 7.5 out of 10. Many other people got 8 or 8.5. I wasn't happy. How can they even get that mark? I'm obtained Band 5 in MUET and what are theirs? Some of them barely got a Band 3. Ok I know I sound like a puffed up guy, I'm proud, I'm cocky, but still, who would believe that a Band 5 guy gets a lower mark than those who can't even speak proper English?! But then, I have to learn to be humble.
Actually I felt worse during lunch. First, it rained and I was almost soaked. Then flies and cats are disturbing me when I was eating. Later, my friends came and one of them was my room mate. Another room mate. I asked what he got for EC since he took the same test days ago. He got 8.5. What the hell?! I mean, WHAT THE HELL! Few weeks ago, he was praised for presented his assignment well in class. I was given a rather discouraging remark. And now he got a higher mark than I. Can I say a bad word now?
This same guy spoiled my day again. Early in the morning, he boiled some noodles and left it on the table. I thought he might have cooked some for me, too, but since I was rushing for lab, I didn't ask and I only text him to ask if some of it was for me. He replied, saying that it was for those in the house who wanted to eat. Then I told him that very likely it will be untouched, since he didn't inform the household. True enough.
Later, I thought of keeping that for dinner so as not to waste food. I even text him again to tell him not to throw and I want to have it for dinner. He said he didn't want it as it may spoil, but I assured him that fermentation won't happen so fast. After discussion with a friend outside, I came back home. And guess what? Bingo! He disposed them. Awesome friend. He could be thinking that I should not risk my stomach with it, but hello... the noodle wasn't even wet with sauces or what. Should I give him a medal for being kind? Whatever. Had to have my dinner outside. Alone.
Sometimes I think, am I not entitled to my feelings? If I show that I'm upset, congratz! I just became an unpopular guy. Everyone hates me. If I remain my smile after some brainless fella offended me, he thinks that I can be messed with. And I constantly need someone to be with me. Is that wrong? Is that too much?
This same guy spoiled my day again. Early in the morning, he boiled some noodles and left it on the table. I thought he might have cooked some for me, too, but since I was rushing for lab, I didn't ask and I only text him to ask if some of it was for me. He replied, saying that it was for those in the house who wanted to eat. Then I told him that very likely it will be untouched, since he didn't inform the household. True enough.
Later, I thought of keeping that for dinner so as not to waste food. I even text him again to tell him not to throw and I want to have it for dinner. He said he didn't want it as it may spoil, but I assured him that fermentation won't happen so fast. After discussion with a friend outside, I came back home. And guess what? Bingo! He disposed them. Awesome friend. He could be thinking that I should not risk my stomach with it, but hello... the noodle wasn't even wet with sauces or what. Should I give him a medal for being kind? Whatever. Had to have my dinner outside. Alone.
Sometimes I think, am I not entitled to my feelings? If I show that I'm upset, congratz! I just became an unpopular guy. Everyone hates me. If I remain my smile after some brainless fella offended me, he thinks that I can be messed with. And I constantly need someone to be with me. Is that wrong? Is that too much?
Lesson for today? Forgiveness. Humility. Love anyway.
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